Awakening to Compassion: Anger as a Catalyst
~Tarasa B. Lovick, MS
The founders of the VRA carefully chose three words to identify the work
of the organization: clarity, integrity and compassion. The principle of
compassion lies at the heart of all human interactions, calling us
always to treat all others as we wish to be treated ourselves.
Compassion impels us to work tirelessly to alleviate the suffering of
our fellow creatures, to dethrone ourselves from the centre of our world
and put another there, and to honor the inviolable sanctity of every
human being, treating everybody, without exception, with absolute
justice, equity and respect.
As VRA members, I think that we will all agree that we urgently need to
make compassion a clear, luminous and dynamic force in our polarized
world. Compassion can break down political, dogmatic, ideological and
religious boundaries. Born of our deep interdependence, compassion is
essential to human relationships and to a fulfilled humanity. It is the
path to enlightenment, and essential to the creation of a just economy
and a peaceful global community.
We do not have to look far to see the chaos that exist today; there are
devastating earthquakes, nuclear disasters, wars, and the prisons are
overflowing because so many people are seething with anger. Yes, there
are so many enraged and angry people on the planet leaving a swath of
destruction behind them. What can we do with all of this rage and anger?
Let us begin with the fact that your anger is not good or bad, it's
simply anger. Anger does contain energy which can be transformed into
skillful and loving action. However, first you must understand your
dislike of experiencing anger, or any intense emotion.
When I'm angry, I give off negative energy, and that can hurt people.
That is true; when you're angry, you do give off negative energy. Are
you going to stop the arising of negative energy in yourself by saying,
"I'm bad to be angry?” Can you prevent a glacier from melting? Can you
stop the ocean wave from crashing on the shore? Think about that a
moment.
You can control your reaction toward another, but can you shut off the
feeling of anger in yourself, really eliminate it? Do you merely
suppress it? In terms of energy flow, if you suppress emotion, it's just
as real, it's simply lurks beneath the surface. Yes, it would be well to
transform it into positive energy, but such transformation will never
happen through judgment and suppression. As long as you are getting rid
of your anger, you are still controlled by that anger.
It is not helpful to attempt to eradicate all anger because, as long as
you are human there's going to be a catalyst that arouses it. I'm not
suggesting that you simply allow anger in and act upon it. Can you
develop a different relationship to it? There are more than two choices.
You need neither to act upon anger nor to suppress it, just bring gentle
awareness to it.
When someone speaks or acts in such a way that anger arises in you, can
you stop and look? What is this anger? Ask, "Does it relate only to the
trigger or does it also relate to my dislike of this emotional turmoil
in myself?" It is so inconvenient and uncomfortable to experience anger!
You may fear you'll be driven to act on the anger, and with that fear,
you judge yourself as if you had already acted. Can you see that
judgment?
You feel anger arising in you. Most of you won’t react. Are you BAD for
wanting to retaliate? You don't have to act on that, and you don't have
to suppress it or hate yourself for it. You have been conditioned to
judge yourself.
How do you find FREEDOM?
As you notice the intensity of the angry feeling, you might begin to be
able to see what lies behind it. Anger is secondary. Behind it, often,
is fear. Fear that your needs won't be met leads to grasping and
clinging, to jealousy and selfishness. Fear that you are going to be
hurt arouses a need to protect the self. In that need to protect, anger
arises with its rush of adrenaline. When fear is experienced, the body
reverberates with past experiences. There is the constant question:
"Could I be hurt?" When you feel threatened, fear arises often followed
by anger.
As you come deeper into watching that process, the solidity of the
emotion changes. It's no longer a solid mass that you have to fight
instead, it becomes simple anger. When you notice it early, just
noticing the first tightness in your solar plexus, then you have a
sense, "This is anger arising in me," and you can simply be present with
it, without reacting.
Many thoughts pass through you every minute, they are not your
thoughts--they are simply thoughts. To be free from reacting it's useful
to SEE the arising of thoughts as part of a process, life.
Central to the teachings of the Buddha is a natural law called Dependent
Origination. Simply put, for something to arise, the conditions for its
arising must be present. When conditions are no longer present, that
which has arisen dissolves. Even more, it's a keystone upon which you
may begin to act more skillfully and to free yourselves and others from
suffering.
Let's look at the process by which you move to any emotion, painful or
joyful. What really happens when you feel anger, desire or even bliss?
How do you move into the experience of emotion?
To experience anything, first the senses become aware. Second you
perceive that the senses have become aware. At these two points there's
still no attachment or aversion. You're neutral. Just hearing, seeing,
feeling. If you stay in neutral you experience equanimity. If not, you
move to the mental formations such as "fear," or "anger." This movement
from contact to mental formation happens in a split second. It happens
as the result of all your past conditioning.
What's the significance of SEEing this? When there is intense emotion
and you can see how it arose with some clarity you have choices. You
don't have to react to emotion or suppress it; you can just be
compassionately present to it.
It seems important to state that it's your relationship with the emotion
that causes the intense discomfort. To have inner peace doesn't mean you
never feel, only that you are at peace with whatever arises. It is quite
possible to simultaneously experience anger and compassion. Your
compassion is not only for another but for yourselves. It is the
judgment about your anger that separates you from the deepening of
compassion. Can you be present with anger without hating that anger?
When you hate your own anger, that's just more hatred.
You ask about righteous anger. You may have the thought, "I've got to
teach this person not to be _____ (you fill in the blank). If he says,
"That's bad," and you say, "No. It's good." You crash into each other.
There's no room for communication, it can never flow from a place of
hatred.
What might happen when you hear that person speak, as rage rises in you,
if you meet that fear, and touch it with a bit of compassion? Then you
know you are BOTH feeling fear, and see his _________ (you fill in the
blank) in a new light: not "He SHOULDN'T feel __________!" but "WHY does
he feel ________? What are his fears?"
Can you accept that if another’s prejudice arouses rage in you, you also
have fears? Can you meet fear, not with rage, but with the openhearted
question, "What are MY fears? Why does his speech arouse so much anger
in me?"
As compassion leads you to hear his fear, then communication becomes
possible. The basis of compassion is learning to watch fear and anger
responses arise in yourself, and ask without judgment, "What is this
anger?" Until you can be compassionate to yourself, you cannot be
compassionate toward another. Such compassion is the only REAL basis for
world peace. So this is a vital lesson that all of you are learning, to
relate differently to yourselves and to each other than you have in the
past, to begin to notice how anger arises, to begin to let go of the
judgment of yourself for being angry.
I said, earlier, there are two different issues; the emotion itself, and
your relationship to that emotion. Part of what you're learning is to
change your relationship to that emotion, to feel a sense of peace with
whatever is coming through. You can't control your experiences in large
part.
Something wonderful begins to happen as you move from feeling anger, and
self-hatred about that anger, to feeling anger, and feeling a calm
acceptance. "Here's anger. It will come, and then it will have passed."
We call this equanimity toward emotions.
With that compassion for yourself, you begin to see another's anger or
emotions differently. That being is feeling anger. Suddenly, you no
longer need to control your angry response towards them and say, "I'm
not going to let myself get angry." There's a shift within you.
When you see another feeling anger, a great sense of compassion arises
in you when you see the depth of their pain! You genuinely don't feel
angry. You are getting free from your automatic responses and creating a
new pattern for yourself, a new way of being with intense emotions, a
new way of being at peace within yourself. You're learning that your
inner peace doesn't depend on external circumstances, but comes from
within. And that is a wonderful piece of learning.
This life is your teacher. Anger offers the most energy, when it is
transformed to compassion and to recognition of your oneness with all.
You cannot transcend what you don't accept. When you find compassion for
all the intense emotions in yourself, that ACCEPTANCE is what leads you
to compassion for another. Then you find that the same catalyst that led
to rage simply leads you to an open hearted look at the situations that
confront you.
An evolution awaits all those who are willing to humble themselves and
‘let go’ of what they know. For, it is only in ‘letting go’ that one may
become ‘open like a child’ and receive world-altering grace. With that
said, I invite you to empty your cup of all you ‘know’, or ‘think you
know’, so that you may make room for the possibility of new
understanding.